i've kind of taken responsibility for planning/organizing the tile selection and installation and the cabinetry. i'm having so much fun! i told that to ben and he laughed, because i don't think he loves this stuff as much as i do. :) he's very patient with me, especially when i get excited about a beautiful faucet or something equally ridiculous. [although both our jaws dropped at the sight of these fixtures, which are gorgeous but would blow the budget big time.]
God is teaching me the value of hard work. honestly, i am so lazy. i quit when things get hard—not only that, but i think that is what i was "known for" growing up. it's time to change that, both at work (my job) and at working around the house. God has given me a measure of hardworkfulness (that is not a word, but it is a mixture of hardworking and thankfulness) that i don't think i've had before. i think He is telling me that it is time for me to grow up and learn to be productive and creative for a purpose. when i become a mom, Lord willing, there is no room for laziness. life is work. heaven is eternal rest.
here's a little litmus test of the above paragraph: i love magazines. when i would get one in the mail, i would stop what i was doing to look through it. [i think working in publishing makes reading for pleasure a little more difficult—i read manuscripts all day at work, so sometimes, i just like to relax by looking at pretty pictures.] anyways, through promotions, i have free subscriptions to lucky and this old house. real simple was a gift, and i bought a subscription to house beautiful. i currently have brand-new issues of all four of these magazines...just sitting around, unopened. and the reason they are unopened is that every time i get a moment to start flipping through one, i have a realization that work needs to be done, like dishes, picking up the bedroom, or washing the car, and i decide to do that work instead. and you know what? that's okay! i'm not complaining, i'm not saying that i feel guilty about taking a few minutes to relax. i'm saying that God has helped me to find joy in work, to the point that i want to do it more than read a magazine! maybe this is juvenile, but like i said—it's time for me to grow up. i kid you not when i wrote that i loved cleaning the house on saturday. it was good, dirty, satisfying work. i've been wondering how to rest on the sabbath. i think sunday might become magazine day. :)
thanks for reading, and for all the kind responses and encouragement. blogging is kind of self-indulgent, so i appreciate all those who hang in there with me!